i will go

while paying close attention to the v. family's blog,  2 blog posts i keep reading over and over again.  they explained their journey from the beginning with no details left out.  it was pretty neat to see exactly what they went through.  one line she prayed to God has always stuck out to me. she said:  "God, i can't tell if this crazy notion i have is just my love for orphans, or if it is your will for our future.  you know what's best for our family.  i just want your will for our family, not my own, and i can't tell the difference..."
I thought that was so cool, and thought about that in my own life, but a little different.  here is my version... "God, you know what is best for me, I want your will for my life not mine.  I want to follow you, where you lead me because i know your plans are the best for my life.  Help me realize this, and live for you every day."
And just the other night at youth, we sang an amazing song, dealing with exactly that.  the words hit me like a bundle of bricks and that second i thought of the v. family and also applied it to my own life....

To the desperate eyes and reaching hands
To the suffering and the lean
To the ones the world has cast aside
Where you want me I will be

I will go, I will go
I will go, Lord send me
To the world, To the lost
To the poor and hungry
Take everything I am
I'm clay within your hands
I will go, I will go, send me

Let me not be blind with privilege
Give me eyes to see the pain
Let the blessing you've poured out on me
Not be spent on me in vain
Let this life be used for change

I wanna live for you
Go where you lead me
I wanna follow you
Send me!

Send me God, I will go.  I want to follow you.

~amy